When You Think You Have Surrendered It All

Phil 3I have been struggling lately in prayer and not able to pinpoint the problem.

There’s not always a problem just because you don’t feel a certain way in prayer. The lack of emotion in your prayer time is not always a reliable indicator of how your prayer time is going. Think about it: My connection to those closest to me does not disappear just because I have a day where I don’t feel emotionally close to them or am distracted by the details of life. Genuine love and intimacy persist through such temporary things. But after a while, if things don’t get back to normal, it is wise to prayerfully examine your own heart and thinking.

In my case, I️ have been suspecting that the problem was distraction. Not phones ringing, or interruptions, but, in this case, a competing distraction.

This particular distraction is noble, useful, and, in my case, done for upright reasons. Yet, because it is something I️ also happen to enjoy immensely, it can be a distraction.

I️ have been praying for a few weeks now, asking the Lord to show me what He would have me do about this noble distraction. I feel that He gave me Philippians 3:7-8 (which you can see in context in the attached graphic).

But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things.As a result, I am examining the distraction in light of what really matters. Will He teach me to pursue this noble activity in a different way or give it up altogether? If He has me to give it up, what will have me do instead? Perhaps it is the doing that is the problem! We will see. For now, I am still wrestling but I understand the struggle now and will continue to pray about it until He wins!

Why wait until we get to heaven?

The following are two journal entries from Amber Floridia. Amber participated in The Daily Prayer Project online and has stayed with it ever since! She posts every week about her prayer times and I asked her to share something I could post. Be blessed by thisPraying young lady glimpse into the spiritual pursuit of this precious young lady.

9/28/17

As soon as I opened my eyes this morning I heard what sounded like a choir of women singing, “Obedience to the Lord brings forth many blessings.” Hallelujah! As I was worshiping Him this morning I was singing “Not in a hurry” by Will Reagan. As I was singing to Jesus I saw a sick man and I felt Him remind me of Matthew 25:40&45. I felt Him say don’t be in a hurry to spend time with the sick, the hurting, the dying, the lost etc. Thank you Jesus for Your words! Please help me to not be in a hurry when the opportunity comes up to help those like in Mathew 25:35-36. In Jesus’ name amen!

Later on today as I was getting ready to leave I was walking around my house I was praying for my Grandpa and his aid. I was rushing on my way out to get a pedicure. But my grandpa’s nurse’s car was blocking me in the driveway. So I kindly went to her to ask her to move it for me and when she came back we got to talking about her situation. She was telling me how badly she needed prayer and that she was tired of people saying they would pray for her and then not do it. I told her how the Lord already led me to pray for her from my house that morning and I got to pray for her right then and there and she was so grateful. Then we started talking about how awesome Jesus is and how when she gets to heaven and sees Jesus face to face she’s going to dance and dance. I told her I’m going to just sob and sob at His feet and then dance around. Thank you Jesus for already giving me and opportunity to love on people who are hurting and feel lonely! Wow!

 

9/29/17

At the Table tonight we were singing “Good Good Father” a song I’ve probably heard/sung a thousand times. Tonight though was different. We got up to the verse “love so undeniable I, I can hardly speak. Peace so unexplainable I, I can hardly think.” And I couldn’t even finish singing the verse because I felt His love fall on me in such a strong way I just started laughing out of joy. Then the laughter turned into sobs of Joy and I fell onto my knees and just sobbed and laughed out of joy and His overwhelming love. It was so amazing. I don’t think I’ve ever felt His love that strongly before and I’ll never forget it! Then Olga challenged us to not hold back in our worship to Him because He deserves it! And I thought to myself YEAH HE DOES! So I danced around the room and didn’t hold back or care about anyone else in the room but Jesus.

 

After writing all of these things in my journal I realized that the conversation I had with my grandpa’s aid about meeting Jesus face to face in Heaven came full circle at the Table. Me falling at His feet sobbing and then dancing around. That actually happened! Right here on earth! As I realize this I feel Him telling me that there’s no better time to worship Him and love Him with all our hearts than right here and now. Spirit to spirit. He lives in us so why should we wait to worship Him face to face? (Romans 8:11, Galatians 2:20) Why wait until we get to Heaven? (1 Peter 2:9)